Dear God, It’s been some time since I truly reached out to you. My soul is weary and heavy burdened. I didn’t realize until today just how I longed for you. I didn’t truly understand the relationship I would have with you and how long you have searched for me. I believe it was whenContinue reading “Dear God”
Category Archives: child loss
Tears
How many more tears must I cry Lord? How much longer must I carry this grief so deep within my soul? I’m still grieving the loss of my son and still find myself in constant grief for the loss of many others who continue to lose their own battle with addiction. When we are inContinue reading “Tears”
On This Mother’s Day
Here I am again, my third mother’s day without you. My heart broken. My mind racing. I don’t want to get up out of bed. I don’t want to see anyone. I don’t want to talk to anyone. I just want to get lost in all the memories of you. It’s like I’m a strangerContinue reading “On This Mother’s Day”
NO REGRETS
My dear boy, sitting here thinking of you as I take a deep breath and acknowledge that it’s 22 months today since you were called to be with the Lord. The pain is not as heavy as it was 22 months ago but my love has grown deeper and stronger for you each passing day.Continue reading “NO REGRETS”
All I Want For Christmas
This year has been a truly difficult time for myself and all of us as this pandemic has changed the ways we gather together. As many of us may spend Christmas alone or with just our own family in the confines of our home, let’s try to remember that we are still surrounded by God’sContinue reading “All I Want For Christmas”
My Wish For Your Birthday
It’s been two years now and I had my son’s second Heavenly birthday celebration. He has been gone now for 15 months and I’ve gone through all the “firsts”…now, well…it’s year two. I’m ashamed to say I can’t remember the last time I had a birthday party for him. I believe maybe 9 or 10Continue reading “My Wish For Your Birthday”
Seasons
Life can be very hard to understand but when we can break it down into seasons we may find some understanding after all. As I think about the seasons I can somehow relate to each of my seasons of grief. At first, I didn’t think I could ever get past the pain. I believed IContinue reading “Seasons”
A Mother’s Day
My second Mother’s day without my son. My first was just so new and fresh just a little over a month after he was called home. It was a wet, cold rainy day and I along with my sister and a few close friends participated in the 5k “A Mothers Hope” walk. My dear friendContinue reading “A Mother’s Day”
Finding Joy
It has been 13 months since my son passed. As I reflect on this day of where I was and where I am today I am full of hope. I am grateful for all the seasons God took me through to get here…today. Today is National Bereavement Day- honoring our children that now reside withContinue reading “Finding Joy”
My Gifts
I was just 19 years of age when my little brother at drowned at 14 years old. He was full of life. Loved playing the drums and played in little league baseball. He was a short stop but could play any position. I was just newly married a little over four months when the accidentContinue reading “My Gifts”
I Am Life 