It has been 13 months since my son passed.
As I reflect on this day of where I was and where I am today I am full of hope.
I am grateful for all the seasons God took me through to get here…today.
Today is National Bereavement Day- honoring our children that now reside with our Heavenly Father and a day to remember the mothers who’s hearts will never be the same again.
When I woke up this morning God spoke to me about joy. As I opened my bible to begin my day with God’s Word it was there Psalm 16:11 that says:
“You make known to me the path of life, in your presence there is fullness of joy; at your right hand are pleasures forevermore.”
Tears streamed down my face. I knew it was a sign and a nudge from God to find and feel joy again.
God is Joy and I know deep within my aching heart it is what my son wants for me as well.
It pained him to see me cry and sad all the time. It pained him because he said it was due to him his mom was sad and broken.
Today, what better way to honor my sons memory but to find peace and joy on this day.
I took a walk to embrace this day with joy in my heart and in my path I found a shiny dime (from heaven) and I saw the beauty of a red cardinal fly past me. All signs from above.
The skies are blue, the sun is shining, the flowers are blooming and the birds are singing. All of this from our Creator. Yes, I can have joy again.
I layed my son’s memory rocks from his friends and family that they wrote on his first birthday in Heaven. They are spread out under his tree and where his memorial wind chime with a sudden slight breeze plays a sweet melody to my ears.
A melody, a memory, a forever love.
Until I see him again, I will always speak his name and carry him in my heart.
I Am Life 